“A pure heart open to the light, will be filled with the very essence of Truth.” ~ Rumi
I had an awakening this week, after receiving the gift of a Thai Massage. I felt as if I could feel my prana, energy, vibrating and dancing about. I’ve been told that we’re not solid objects, and for the first time I felt that way. I’ve had massages before and have left feeling wonderful and relaxed, but this was different. The gift giver suggested after, that I go to the beach and sit with my feet in the sand, so I went. I never felt so connected and unconnected at the same time. Within myself I felt as if like i was the center of the universe. And, although there were lots of people around, when I listened for outside sounds, all I heard was the waves crashing in the sand. It was easy for me to keep going inward, and instinctively I new what I should do. When to move, eat, and head home. Honoring myself in the simplistic of terms. When I arrived home I was exhausted, even though it had only been a few hours and even though I had a good nights sleep. Not wanting to lose this feeling, a definite change in my whole being, I just lay still for a few hours.
A week later, I’ve allowed the beautiful essence of this gift to fade. Why is it that we sometimes allow ourselves to default to the place inside us, where we don’t want to be. Why is it so hard for us sometimes. Why do we allow stuff to affect us, when we know better,… habits, I realize, take time to change. So, recognizing the habits, honoring ourselves, and giving yourself the moment to make the shift, is sometimes, the best we can do until the new habit takes form.
Be easy on yourself, but see your truth, see your drama. Let it go, an start shifting your thoughts, and life, to where you really want it to be. Do you really want to live in the drama – step back, step away, turn. Start focusing on what you want, and how you feel strength, in your peace.
Speaking my truth, with love, and light,
Goldi