Moments in Time

“I held a moment in my hand, brilliant as a star, fragile as a flower, a tiny sliver of one hour.  I dripped it carelessly, Ah!  I didn’t know, I held opportunity.”  Hazel Lee

Beautiful quote but…,Forget about it… Move on… were wasting time!  The possibility is always here that the day that lies before us, absolutely anything may happen. Do what you want to do.  Do what you love to do… live fully the life that you create.  If you’ve missed an opportunity, create another one.

Enjoy every moment now!

Just a thought…

Love, Goldi

Creating my perfect life in a perfect world…

An example of why living our “just right” life not only helps ourselves, but helps the world!

Today I woke up in a great mood! I had to clean but I was doing it joyfully while listening to music.  I started wondering if the twenty year old family member, who mows my yard, was going to arrive.  It has been three weeks since he had last mowed, and we have had an unusually large amount of rain, so it needed it.  I decided to call, and I realized as we talked that he had not even thought about it, but he said that he would figure it out.  About an hour later he called and in an angry and resentful voice he said “is it raining there, because it is raining here, and I do not want to drive all the way out there if it is going to start raining?  There is nothing I hate more than to be mowing in the rain.”  I immediately became defensive, feeling like I have given him an opportunity to earn money, and selling his service to two other neighbors, I also feel a little responsible. It has always been a struggle to get him to come, and when he does arrive, he does not seem to care about the job that he has done. He just rushes through with the effort of a man who would rather be anywhere else,  and wants to see how quickly the job can be done, and be out of here.

When I got off the phone my mind started wandering to other things that make me mad, and it was not just about the mowing or this person.  My mind was racing out of control and every wrong that had been done to me, every negative person or event, and every fear that I had, was springing up!  Then all of a sudden, I did something different, I said wait!  This is not the day I want.   This is not the relationship I want with this person.  This is not the attitude that I want!  What happened, and how can I change this?

So I started thinking… that here I am trying to do him a favor and he may be thinking that he is doing me one, and by doing something out of obligation he has become resentful, and now, so have I.  If instead of trying to help, if I would of allowed him to find his own way, and live his best life, he may have chosen to do something that he enjoyed, or at least felt grateful for.  Instead he became angry, then I did.  In the past I would of continued to be angry around all who I became in contact with today, which would of affected them, and then this single act of two people who were trying to help one another, would of instead spread anger.  So, I gave myself an attitude adjustment, and when he arrived I told him thanks for coming, that the next mow would probably the last of the season, and that he should do all yards to perfection, and then for him to possibly tell everyone that this would be his last year of mowing.  That he needed to find and do what brought him joy!  He agreed, and said that he had told himself that last year, but yet he still mowed.  Which confirmed to me my assumption as to why he was resentful.

So I hope you get where I am trying to lead you… that when we do what is best for ourselves, we bring joy to our lives and to those around us.  Then the joy grows and grows and grows, and that is what we all really want!  …and spreading joy, that is what is best for the world!

Just a thought!

Love, Goldi

Goldilocks Blog

Searching for the perfect life in a perfect world…

Goldilocks Experiment

I feel a surge of love, goodness and hope!  It is funny how thoughts can do that to you. Lately I have been having a hard time writing something that I wanted to publish on my blog.  My original vision of my blog was to always put inspirational words on it, acts of good will, and thoughts on how we can live a better life, but sometimes it is hard. Sometimes I feel like I am being a fraud, because I do not always feel so up.  Today I have been contemplating committing to an expensive writing retreat.  It is what I want to do so bad.  I feel it in every bone of my body that this is what I want to do.  I have told you before that I see my life as a traveler, blogger, writer, and also of a person just living in peace at home with family, with friends, and in nature.  My fear today is that I should not spend that money.  That it may be wrong to spend that money on a dream, and as I am writing this, a revelation has come to me.  That if I do not do it my dream may not happen.  It may start a chain of events that limits me and keeps me filled with doubts.  Other opportunities may appear that seem safer.  I may take that road, and then may not come back down this road for years or ever…

My original reason for writing the blog was to get me writing.  To help me to communicate with others, to feel heard, and to keep myself pumped up with positive words.  I had felt myself slipping deep into a depression that I needed to get out of.  I wanted to feel that someone was listening.  I wanted to have hope, and it worked!  I feel so much better.  Down days I look at my blog and read the inspirational words that I need to remember and it has brought me back.

So I am going to do it.  I am going to spend that money because the vision of myself not doing it, make my heart feel like it is breaking.  It seems that if I don’t do this, life would be unbearable, and yet while doing it makes me feel excited and hopeful, it also feels reckless. Reckless at a time in our economy and in my life where future income is an unknown factor, that the money should be save for food, housing and debts already incurred. Not doing it leaves me in that self defeating downward spiral with no hope, and no happiness which I think will lead me to all the places that I do not want.

So I am going to continue this Goldilocks experiment of having the perfect life and living it in a perfect world.  I will not be pushed by my fear!  I will lead with my dreams, and I hope you do the same!  Cheers to our success!

 Just a thought!

 Love, Goldi